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Tuesday, January 26, 2010

hi there!!!! remember me?????


i suck, i know.  im sorry!!!

but im still here...

and im kickin butt and takin names. 

translation --- im still watchin my calories, and i drink a metric ass ton of water daily. 

im struggling to get the water in on the weekend.  idk why that is.

but when im at work, i drink no less than 128oz of water during that 8 hour period. 

and i get another 40oz in once i get home. 

i only have 1 pop a day.  and its a diet one. 

this week i weighed in today instead of monday.  why?  because monday i felt all puffy and swollen and i just felt like poo. 

so i weighed in today. 

and HEYYYYYYYYYYY, im down another 4.7 taking me to 9lbs.  yayyyyyyyyyy

wah-hoooooooooooo!!!!!!

i do need to get into some work out routine, but im really just not that into it yet. 

ill get there.  for real.  just not ready yet.  too much craziness going on. 

i need to make this eating & water thing a true habit before i add in more stuff. 

hows everyone else doin out there????????

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

im late, im late, for a very important date...



so, yea, i suck.

ive been doing that thing that always bites me in the ASS. 

avoiding. 

ive been avoiding posting because i didnt want to admit that i was highly upset @ the scale on monday.

i gained 5lbs from last week. 

5 fucking pounds.  WTF.

im still down 5, but come ON.

however, in my defense, i know the following things:

1) i should not have weighed in last week after 12 hours of really nasty flu. 
2)  AF is arriving this week and the bitch always brings extra fluid with her
3) i watch the BL,  i KNOW week 2 sucks. 
4)  i did not work out much, except 1 day. 
5)  my boyfriend took us out to dinner saturday night, and even tho i tried to be good, when i logged the food, it was WAAYYYYY bad. 

so, im back to kicking ass & taking names this week. 

and earlier this week, from another bloggy buddy at Our Favorite Things, I found this website, and thats my plan.  I wanna try it. 

hopefully next week, i will be relating GOOD news!

also, i got an awesome award from Dual Mom and I need to do that post....  which i will.....  hopefully tomorrow!!!!!!

hopefully you all are having a better week than me!!!!


question for you:
DO ANY OF YOU OWN THOSE NEW REEBOKS WITH THE SO-CALLED BALANCE BALL TECHNOLOGY????? 
ARE THE WORTH THE $120???????????

go see my buddies:



Friday, January 15, 2010

getting the word out

in my quest to lose weight, ive often forgotten how serious things like eating disorders are.


but they are.


they kill.


go here, and read this post, and see what you can do to help.  


its not about money, its about awareness.  


go help a  bloggy  friend in anyway you can.  


thanks.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

What I Meant to Say Wednesday


Joining in on Chief's awesome blog carnival


DO IT, DO IT NOW.

muah-ha-ha-ha-ha

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When you so nicely offered me some of that high fat, high calorie crap you brought into the office, and i politely said no thank you....

What I meant to say??

FUCK YES I WANT SOMETHING THAT IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BAD BAD BAD FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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When I walked into Subway and you said "hi what can we get for you today" and i said " a 6" veggie on wheat"?

What I meant to say???

GIMME A FUCKIN 12" DOUBLE MEAT, DOUBLE CHEESE, PHILLY CHEESE STEAK ON WHITE. 

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When you guys encourage the continuation of the diet / lifestyle change...  I say thank you...

what i meant to say???

THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU
THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU

to infinity and beyond. 

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So, yea, go see Chief & join in the awesome fun!!!!!










Monday, January 11, 2010

OH HOT DAMN!!!!!!!

so, in the midst of being sicker than a dog, i weighed in today.


and i am happier than a puppy with two peckers.  


yes, you read that right ;)


my hardwork has paid off!!!!!!!!!


9.7lbs bitches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


fuck yea!!!!!!!


i still feel pretty much like a bag of smashed assholes, so im gonna leave it at that.  


i owe my ass a pedicure sometime this week :)


off to take some more drugs and sleeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppp


love you all.  
thank you so much for the support!!!!!
you really make it easier.








Sunday, January 10, 2010

Mondays are scary.

as excited as i am that tomorrow is monday and i get to leave my home that i have been stuck in non-stop for the last 4 whole days with zero contact with the outside world, save for my computer, i am also nervous as HELL.


why??????????


oh, because i have to put my fat ass on that god forsaken scale.





hold me.  im skeered.  


ive been ohsogood this week.  seriously.  even feeling like total and utter shit today, i got on the treadmill.  i did a half hour program @ 3.5mph (which on my short ass legs, damn close to a jog).


i met my activity for the week.


ive met the water requirement everyday except yesterday


ive been close to or under calories everyday.  


and still, when i get IM's from friends of mine saying fuck it, they are going back to corona because even after a week of the flu, watching what she ate, and workin out on the wii fit, she gained 2lbs this week.  


and ive read blogs of others that did really good and still had a gain.  


i know, i know, logically, i know that what i did for myself was better than i was doing.


i know it, i FEEL it.  


i just want that fucking scale to respect it and show it.  


know what im sayin??????


so ill be back tomorrow, to let you know what that evil bastard has to say


fingers crossed!!!!!!!!!!!
but not both hands, ive heard thats bad luck :)

Friday, January 8, 2010

one more thing....

could someone please, 
PUH-LLLLEEEEEEEASEEEE 
come eat the open bag of chocolate chips in my fridge??????  





i cannot bear to just throw them out and they are TAUNTING me people.  rat bastards.

friiiiiiiiiiiiiiiidaaaaaayyyyyyyy

its friday!!!!!!!!  


yayyyyyyy!!!!!!


oh, wait, ive been home for 2 days anyway....  so technically wednesday was my friday, and i didnt even know it at the time......


in all honesty, its been a good day.  


if you click my link to see my food diary, you'll see i ate like a starving Ethiopian at dinner, but i cant help it, i cooked a fucking fantastic dinner, and i didnt even mean too.   (no really, it was fuckin delish.  even my picky ass 10yo thought so.  it was sweet n sour roast in the crock pot...  if you want the recipe, lemme know, ill share, its not even that damn bad for you, i just ate a fuckton of it)


its a wonder i dont just float when i walk because of all the goddamn water i drink.  but its good, seriously, and i aint got nothin on chief  when it comes to water consumption (200 oz a day!!!!!  holy FUCK woman!!!!).  i only drink about HALF that, and THAT i considered good....  


i am sitting here enjoying the hell out of a diet pepsi though.  



and i know i shouldnt.  sodium, cut out all pop, bla bla bla....  but you know what????  i earned it.  


we lived thru that nasty ass flu, we didnt kill each other even though its 20 degrees outside, with a windchill of about 2, and theres 7" of snow, so my warm blooded ass does not leave the house, so today, was a good damn day.  


tomorrow im goin grocery shoppin.  


and it is so fuckin sad that i am EXCITED about this.  


*sigh*


happy friday bitches :)





Thursday, January 7, 2010

oh, lord, this is NOT a good day :(


HEY YOU GUUUUUUYYYYYYYYSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(said in my bestest goonie voice)


this is not my happy face. 


oh, the horrors. 

my 4 year old is sick.  like EEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWW sick. 

has been since midnight. 

and lemme tell ya sompin....  spaghetti puke......

SOOOOOOOO FUCKING NASTY.

annndddddddddd.....  this means im stuck in the house ALL DAY.  cleaning up yuk. 

with nothing to save me from eating all of the bad shit in my house  :(

and totally without thinking, i bought & drank a cappucino from the gas station.

BAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDD NEWS. 

:(

today is NOT a good day for trying to lose the fat suit.

heres hoping the rest of YOU have a better day!!

but, help me out.......  how do i stay strong while having ZERO sleep and avoid all the BAD things in my house when all i want is a comfort food???  which as we all know.....  comfort food = a zilllllllion calories & fat!!!!!!!!

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Wednesday, January 6, 2010

i rock, seriously....

i have to keep telling myself shit like that load of crap right there, or else, im gonna go kill a mofo for some chocolate.


bllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh.


but, i am stickin to the plan --- day 3 here.  and i am rockin it.


i probably ate more than i should have yesterday, but none of it was BAD.  i had toast & coffee thingie (see yesterdays post about that!) for breakfast, a 12" veggie sub on wheat (yuck, but its for a good cause) cuz i was fucking staaaaaaaaarving yesterday ( i really should stick to the 6").... and chili for dinner. 


oh, and seriously, my new freaking addiction ---  fucking tootsie pops bitches.  the original ones.  not the tiny lil waste of time ones. 
me n my tootsie


why??????  because its only 60 calories, it WILL take care of a sweet craving, and it lasts long enough to make it worth it. 


hell to the yes.


aaaaaaannnnnnnddddddddd.  i did my first 15 minutes on an eliptical.  EVER.  yesterday.  it was interesting.  awesome seriously.  waaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy better than a treadmill on the knees.  next week im hoping to feel good enough to bump the exercising up to 30 minutes a day of cardio.  but, as much weight as i gained in the last year and half, i just cant fricken do it right now.  baby steps, baby steps. 


so keep on kickin ass all of you!!!!!!!!!  and ill do the same. 


so help me, though, im gonna be so effing pissed off if i get on that scale next week and its NOT a really good number.............


go visit the gals over at Skinny Chics in Sumo suits:



Tuesday, January 5, 2010

on the second day of chirstmas....

my true love gave to me.......

oh, shit, my bad.   i mean, on the second day of dieting, things are going well :)

yesterday....

had a  6" veggie sub from subway for lunch -- which is like 230 calories and so effing delic!!

then for dinner i had 1-1.5 oz of polish with a TON of kraut and a TON of broccoli & cauliflower.  With the polish only accounting for somewhere between 90-140 calories, I pretty much kicked yesterdays ASS.

Oh, ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD, I actually got my fat ass on the treadmill when i got home!  I only did 15 minutes, because, OMG this girl is OUT OF SHAPE!!!  But I also did 15 minutes of stuff on my Wii Fit.  Which was totally fun :)

Oh, and WATER.  I drank SO. MUCH. WATER.  I know for a fact it was well over 80oz yesterday. WOO.  and only 1 pop (and it was diet, so no cals.).  and i didnt drink the whole thing. 

Im very happy with me right now :)

This morning I had 1 piece of toast with some fake butter crap on it and a cold coffee thingie from the store.  WOOO.  i really need to get some OJ up in my house so i can bypass the coffee thingie all together.  some totally lo-cal but tastes all-real OJ.  specially since that damned coffee thingie had like 6g of fucking fat in it!  HOLY HELL.

so im at 210 cal, 7g fat, and .5 fiber for the day.  which is like 5 WW points.  not as good as yesterday, but not bad.  i may go for a whole 12" veggie today.  i is hungry.  and its chili for dinner, which is totally NON bad.  :)

go see these chics.........  they are funny & inspiring....

Monday, January 4, 2010

its a brand new day....


and i started this one off way better than the last idk how many.....


i did NOT get up and workout, which is a bad thing. 


HOWEVER.....  i did only consume 170 calories, 2.5g fat, and 2g fiber for breakfast.  Thats 3 weight watcher points, if counting THAT way. 


Soooooooooo.......  that means i have about 830 calories left for the day.  Or 16-18 points. 


I'm trying to keep caloric intake down to around 1,000.  Thats how I lost (as chief would put it) the ass midget 2 years ago. 


I do plan to work out tonight when I get home.  Maybe, just MAYBE, I'll use and abuse the boyfriend and make him watch my children while I go up to the gym and use their stuff.....  Not likely, but I do have plenty of workout stuff @ my very own house..... 


So, stay tuned for tomorrow..........  If I dont kill myself with a 30 minute workout, I shall return with an update on how I do.........


Burn, baby, burn............